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The raven’s song (so much darkness)

May 30th, 2016

 
I have been so quiet. Withdrawn in a universe made of black holes. Only the raven sang. And I cried and cried and cried. Where have you been? I’ve waited for so long; I have been waiting, waiting.
But not anymore. I grew up. I swam in those seemingly fathomless oceans of tears, until I was out. Until I could breathe again: oxygen, light, hope.
Now I’m spreading stardust among the dark nebulae. Now I scream. I’m the girl throwing dreams against the abyss.
 
I’m slipping, like dandelion seeds, away from the darkness and though it will always be a part of me I will never, never, let it – again – become all I am.
 
We all fight for something. Let it be for something beautiful. Something worth the ruins we leave behind.
 

Maybe, a dream

April 24th, 2016

“You are not real. You are a dream of a dream.” – Henry Miller

 
Silence. So much bareness and emptiness and carelessness. And yet I dare not leave. I have fallen in love with that ferocity, that crushing beauty of the sea.
It’s breathtaking, all that storm-weight finding home in the hollowness of my chest.
 
& You – you have the eyes of an early morning loneliness spreading across the sky. A light-blue deception, a dream, perhaps, that aches despairingly and leaves me shuddered and bruised inside.
 
Only the raging sea remains unsullied by the hurt of unobtainable love. And I can no longer hold the moon without being altered by her excruciating desire for a phoenix-like metamorphosis.
 
I love you, while all mirrors shutter and the sky ruptures and the stars are numb, I love you in the moment when realization comes and I cannot contain the tears any longer – those cataracts of raw and all-consuming tears.
 
I love you and perhaps it will be enough… (But really I fear the storm will never forgive, I fear… no wait, I’m scared… of the perpetual drifting between night and despair.)
 
I love you, but really I’m so scared.